DuRiAn Is Now My ♥
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 , 1:47 AM

OrAnGe ,
when i went to lanjut , my fellow friends wrote our names on the sand , and the sand is near to your ashes ...
I was just trying t fake a smile , all i love is you ...
my world is just like havin' a heavy downpour .
there isnt any sunlight to let me feel the warmth within ,
& youre my sun .
Without you , i felt nothing in me .
I really need you .
I wish you are back .
I miss the time we were together .
Looking at the ashes , i felt a sudden heartache , perhaps i miss you too much .
I shouldnt have gone to Lanjut !
Ever since i went , i just cant seems to accept the fact that youre not with me .
By now if you were around , we should be holding hands and catchin' a movie instead of me typing alone , going market alone .. doing everything alone by myself .
Actually I still couldnt believe what is happening 'round me till the day i went to Lanjut ...
My fellow friends were asking me how did OrAnGe died .
and i was like , 'DIED' ?
OrAnGe DIED ?
some of them were gossiping that OrAnGe died because she cant accept the fact that she marries me as i was too ugly or whatsoever .
but is that truth ? OrAnGe died ?!
I was shocked and dumbfounded .
They then kept asking me bout our wedding .
"It was FINE " , tht was what i could only say tho' my heart was aching like hell .
Am i that bad that you rly have to leave me ?
If i were , why did you choose to marry me ?
You had my heart broken , are you happy now ? if you are happy , im glad .
at least youre happy as you have LEFT THE TERRIBLE , HORRIBLE AUNTIE HONG .
AM I THE BEAST IN YOUR EYE ?
Im truly sorry if i wasnt as perfect as you thought im gna be ...
Im also truly sorry to let you think i dont have menpower .
Im truly sorry that i didnt respect your decision to give away Zhong too .
Im SERIOUSLY SORRY for what I did ...
& auntie hong here , hoping you'll apologise to me for leaving me too . ):
you owe me an aplogy , unless you think i dont worth it ... but i really dont mind .
i just want you to be happy ...
if dying is the only way to let you feel better , then i would rather me dying so that you wont have to see the BEAST IN YOUR EYE anymore ...
Sorry ...
May you be the prettiest angel in Heaven ...